People hold true deep desires that their authentic self yearns for them to do.
Mine is to write, even though I have always written ideas and thoughts down. The feeling of not knowing what to write or the incompleteness of information or knowledge to 'write' has always prevented me from doing it.
The brick wall effect that hits us all is actually an illusion of fear and self doubt.
The desire to paint, sing, write or dance actually holds us back and creates this barrier of our fear of self reflection.
Its not the doubt of what we think we may look like from a reflective point of view, but the illusion of self worth deep within when we actually follow these dreams.
Some people actually love the feeling of always hoping they will one day follow their creative dreams, so never actually full fill this desire in fear it will not hold all the worth they have dreamed it would be.
When I write I 'feel' complete, if I never manage to write a book that becomes a best seller, I will not feel my life long dream will not be complete.
My dream was to write..for who? Myself...
What about? I know now know that its whatever my heart tells me to.
To what end? As it makes me feel whole, a sense of completeness that excitement of not knowing who will read this or gain anything from it, is just as satisfying as it is walking into a bookshop and seeing the best seller on the shelves.
Why? Because in full filling my dream of actually writing with no boundaries or goals other than to just write it has been everything I could of hoped it would be.
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